Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 9:23 AM


caught "X Files:i want to believe" with matt yesterday at Ehub.
guess what matt told me when i asked me what is the show about?

aliens.

*rolls off my chair laughing*

matt................. he is cute in his own way.. we laughed so hard at so many things that HE did. ok.. sometimes its we did.

the show is not bad. it would show one's belief about the existence of a God that speaks. a God that hears and answers your prayers.

that explains the title of the show, i want to believe.

mac went off on saturday.. 3 months.. still not that bad
bro is now packing his stuff, preparing to leave on monday.. 5 months.. its gg to be 2009 before i see him again!!!
but i am excited for him. i wonder how is living in USA like.. their culture and all.. and how does it feel, to be a foreigner in a country that is not your own.. i think i would be afraid.. knowing that i do not have a family where i can run home to, no sisters & brothers..

Sunday, July 27, 2008 @ 2:02 PM


The peck on my right cheek from you was unforgettable. It felt as though your lips had been engraved into my skin. And the texture of your lips, smooth and soft, had put me in a ride on a rollercoaster. But how could that have happened? Was I dreaming? I placed my hand on my cheek to feel the engraving to reconfirm. Yes, it was real. My cheeks, flushed with your tenderness, were still warm from that peck. Then, softly, you came up behind my right ear and nibbled caressingly. You whispered into my ear, slowly and wholeheartedly. “I’ll be your hands in the pouring rain. I’ll be your ears so you can vent your frustrations. I’ll be your eyes when you are searching for a new perspective. I’ll be your tongue when you have to eat something spicy. I’ll be your skin, something you can’t live without. Because I have always loved you.” I turned around and faced you, eye to eye. No one spoke. Silence. Was it a moment of awkwardness? Or was it a moment of appreciation? We were best friends for fourteen years. I have never thought something like this would happen. Why now? Why? Somehow, these questions managed to sink into my bowels. And I have decided to entrust myself to you, my best friend. I threw my body in your arms, and gently whispered into your ear, “I’m yours.”

by: dawn koh ci ai

@ 6:02 AM


i am so so dead.


i fell asleep last night while doing project


submission is monday, 10am

:(

i need my superman

Thursday, July 24, 2008 @ 11:06 PM


this week has been crazy. today its my only day where i can take a step back and relax for awhile before i start to go crazy again tml..

my datelines to meet next week:
a)HR Management Project due on Monday, 10am
b)MBS Access Test, Monday, 11am
c)Japanese Role Play(draft), Thursday
d)Sociology Test, Saturday

ohh myyy.. not forgetting, FOP is next weekend.

after all these projects, in abt 2-3 weeks time, EXAMS!

my life is gone. all gone..

i was talking to him the yesterday, just telling him of how i feel about me missing the mark, missing the opportunity.. i feel bad, guilty and like a failure.. why didnt i just go ahead in faith.. why did i stop.. i told him maybe after i miss this chance, there will be no more other.. i would remain like this forever.. this is it, no more great destiny..

yet he told me this,

"if you miss the sunrise of today, i will make another one for you tomorrow."

this is what i call pure love.

Saturday, July 19, 2008 @ 12:46 AM


i am so diappointed with my mum. really.

its like.. i wonder how much of significance does she even think of me.

my htc touch diamond is now a million miles away. instead, what i can get now is only an ugly E51 nokia phone.

i know that phone is not that bad. but its still a far cry from what i wanted. its not even anywhere near touch screen.

i am so upset that i cried. yeah. now you think that i am crazy to even cry over a phone. but you dont understand, i dream/eat/talk that phone. for 2 whole weeks i log into starhub almost daily to check the prices. counting down to the day of 15 July where the contract is up for renewal. such things have to happen. such stupid things got to happen. i am speechless when i saw that. totally speechless. all i could manage was.. "WHY?"

i hate it when people break their promises to me. i hate it with a passion.
esp if you are my mum, its almost unforgivable.

i am sorry. i need to vent. i couldnt believe it. at the end of much hope, expectation and patience, all i am left with is just a E51. which i am not even the first user of the phone. she bought it for her own use for her korea holiday.

forgetting the promise she made with her child.

i swear i wont want to be a parent like that in the future. never.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 11:46 PM


i nearly lost my phone just now.

*phew*

i wont cry if its gone since i am near to getting a new phone.. but the thing is about me losing phones. it would be my third if i lost this. and my mum would NEVER buy for my any expensive phone if that is the case.(i know. its not like she is even going to get me one because losing a phone is just one part of the issue.) but still...

thank God. i believe he was the one who made sure it was safe.

i was thinking.. why did the person who found my phone didnt steal it might also be because my phone is kinda a lousy one.. imagine what if its the htc touch diamond. i can totally imagine it being stolen and then me crying. hahas. maybe having a lousy phone is not such a bad thing afterall..

i just realised. everyone is leaving to somewhere.

Mum- korea, friday
Bro-US, monday (or is it friday?)
Macson-Shanghai, 20 plus plus. forgot the date.

i will miss mum the most.thank God she is only gg for a week.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008 @ 12:24 AM


just got home from macson's shooting for his project.

well.. it was so so fun! never been to a studio and play so much before.. seriously, the only time i've been to a studio is like during my family phototaking which is tons of years back.

however, all the wacky pictures MIGHT have been deleted due to some carelessness. sigh.. but nevermind, kel and i are still living, there will be a chance for more.

anyway, after what kel told me, yes! i just realised i speak alot of chinese nowadays. what to do.. most of the people that surrounds me in school speaks chinese, excluding matthew. so.. it explains..

all of these are damm random. what makes me wanna blog is simply because i wonder why dont i feel tired despite me sleeping at only 4am last night.. its a mystery..

ok.. i need to do peer notes now..

lalalala.

Gerbera makes me smile.

i need to develop my film.

Sunday, July 13, 2008 @ 1:22 AM


Mock cg tml.

Session 1- Testimony
Session 2- Offering & Vision sharing

i can do this! AI-ZAI!

*i will blog more soon!

Saturday, July 12, 2008 @ 1:32 AM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!

*i know she wont see this*

but still.. yeah

guess what. i am STARTING to revise my finance now at 1.32am with my test is 950am. PTL!

God, u HAVE TO see me through.

Thursday, July 10, 2008 @ 1:18 AM


in face of obstacles, STAND STRONG!

not by myself, but with him, i can do all things.

Saturday, July 05, 2008 @ 2:51 AM


and this is what he said
"every situation you are going through now, it will be written down and recorded. they will be turn into encounters you have with God and they will be like your staff(the sheperd's staff). every mourning will be turn into joy"

what more can i say,
can i just make this request that i can remain forvere faithful in your eyes? even if it means giving up all promotion, glory and honour, anytime Lord, i am here. Break my pride or anything that stops me from reaching deeper into your heart. for i want to be at that secret place with you. that secret place where we play hide and seek, peek-a-boo.. where you will always hold my hands to tell me to get up and just keep walking even though i fall a thousand and million times. that place where i cried my eyeballs out, still you would turn and tell me, "its ok my child. i am here." daddy, i wanna FOREVER be like a little girl in your eyes.

PS. Alpha 1 tml. God will be with me.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008 @ 5:26 PM


got back my mid test results!

not exactly too happy about it with 2 Bs and 1 A. was targeting for straight As but nevermind! i should learn to trust in His strength more the next time.

well.. i really didnt know how to explain my A, which is my finance paper to those who heard about my results. i dont credit it to myself. i wouldnt dare because since young, i am not exactly the bright one around. able to get 27/30 is really a miracle of Him being in my life. he did far above my expectation during my accounting paper last year. now, he DID IT AGAIN! i have nothing to say than a alot of thank you and it just really want to make you love you more!

should i go jogging now?